We Are These Women!

A profound truth sent along by my friend, Liz. No wonder our friendship has lasted since high school!

Happy 3rd Birthday, Ava!

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Ava is such a big girl now. It's hard to believe that 3 years ago today we were anxiously waiting to greet our beautiful girl, never imagining the struggles she would endure. No matter, I wouldn't trade her beautiful soul for all the perfection in the world. To me, Ava IS perfect.

Finally, after many years of shame and discontent, I am a proud, hopeful AMERICAN.

My son, Dominick, and I have canvassed neighborhoods trying to get out the vote. We hung out at the Democratic Campaign Office and soaked up the palpable excitement. We displayed our campaign buttons, yard signs, and bumper stickers. Dominick has literally worn out his Obama t-shirt, for which he was nearly denied entrance to Laura's grandparents' home. Essentially, we lived and breathed this campaign. In return, we have renewed confidence in our country and our leaders.

I feel honored to have participated in this long, hard-fought, unprecedented, and historic election.

God Bless America!

Kaput

Things have been out of whack around here. Nothing too serious, but we did have one fatality:
THE COMPUTER. In order to post I have to sneak around at work or head to the library. It's just crazy, because in the last couple of months we have lost a living room chair, a camera, the computer, and the fuel pump on my car. Seems like when it rains it pours.

On the bright side, Ava is doing really well. She's eating well, sleeping well, and learning something new every day. She has a favorite word these days:

BOOBIES!

It's Potty Time!

Congratulations to Ava. She's a big girl now.

Three, count 'em, THREE mornings in a row she has awakened with a dry diaper! She has consistently been doing both of her, ahem, jobs on the big girl potty. She has a little toilet seat that fits right on the commode. When she's "All done!" she knows to flush the toilet.

CAN YOU BELIEVE IT???

Granted, she has to be reminded. Often. It's funny to watch, because Laura is very dramatic and enthusiastic when she asks Ava to use the bathroom.

Ava, do you want to use the big girl potty?! You do??
Let's go! Oh,my goodness! You are such a big girl! Oh, my goodness, I am so proud! Yeah, Ava! *clap*clap*clap*

Heck, I wanted to sit on the big girl pot myself!

Being a grandma, I had to run right out and buy some big girl undies. Dora the Explorer, size 2T. Cutest things I ever saw. I presented them to her in a pretty gift bag with pink tissue paper. She, of course, tossed the paper to the floor, ignored the panties, and assumed the bag was her new purse--which she promptly hoisted onto her shoulder just like the big girls. All this while sporting wet hair because she had just dipped her head into the toilet. Thankfully, the water was clean!

By the way, all of this has been accomplished by using some tricks supplied by Laura's sister, Liz, who works at a preschool/daycare. One strategy is to only change her diaper while she is standing, so that she gets used to the idea that she can no longer be passive about toileting. Interesting, huh? They also suggest putting their pretty undies right over the top of the diaper. Whatever the method, it seems to be working. I'm so proud of her!

Ugly

I spent Sunday evening at the funeral home. My stepbrother's son died Friday. He was 38 years old--younger than I am. Lung cancer.

My stepbrother and his wife put on brave faces and performed the required meet and greet. They hugged and kissed, shook hands, and asked the appropriate questions. How are the kids? How's your mom doing?

When it was my turn to go through the line my stepbrother hugged me tight and whispered in my ear, "Isn't this ugly?"

Oh, yes, it truly is ugly. It's ugly that a kind, loving young man should be taken away from those who love him. It's ugly that people feel so much despair that they are driven to take their own lives. It's ugly that our children and grandchildren are born with a syndrome that erases so many hopes and dreams. It's ugly that those same children and their parents face discrimination so often, and in so many ways. It's an ugly that can't be viewed head on, but rather by peeking cautiously through the spaces between your fingers.

Life empties us, little by little. Who can stand it?

This has not been a good summer. I have been stuck, stagnant, and apathetic. Basically, I've been mired in a depression so deep that I can't seem to get out. This isn't anything new, it's just taking much longer to resolve itself. I take medicine, I'm pretty self-aware, yet the depression persists. I find myself avoiding social situations, neglecting to return phone calls, and basically hiding in my house every chance I get. Even weekends don't help; I sleep literally all day on Saturday, nap on Sunday, and drag myself back to work on Monday. I will be seeing my doctor September 2, and I am hoping that some good will come of that visit. I don't like to complain in such a public venue, but I just wanted you all to know that I haven't forgotten any of you. I truly want to post on this blog and read all of yours. I just don't have the energy most days.

Let me give you a quick update on Ava. Hold onto your hats!

In the past couple of months Miss Ava accomplished the following amazing feats:

• Graduated from the G-tube and eats like a horse. She weighs 25 lbs.
• Went "Number One" on the the potty--two times!
• Learned a gazillion new words.
• Developed a temper the likes of which has never been seen this side of
  hell
• Learned to swim, kind of, with a dog-paddling stroke so long as
  someone supports her under the tummy.
• Climbed on a jungle gym.
• Learned torture skills that would make a Nazi proud--biting, scratching,
  slapping, screaming, and NO! Said skills are usually performed on people she
  loves, especially her mommy. Go figure.
• Followed by, "Hi, Mama! How you?"

To top it all off, our camera is broken. I am hoping that Laura will share her photos (hint) with me soon so I can post them.

Have a great day!

Independence Day

Oh, yes, I still have faith.

God Bless America!

Uh-oh

Did I ever mention that tube feeding is a pain in the you-know-what?

It was just a matter of time. Ava sorta-kinda accidentally removed her feeding apparatus in the bathtub Sunday night. Because she was never given a MicKey button, a trip to the hospital was necessary. Laura tried to get a catheter into the stoma to keep it open, but it just wouldn't go. You would think that six months post-op it wouldn't close so quickly, but it did.

Mott Children's Hospital is approximately two hours from Ava's house. Laura's mom transported Laura and Ava to the hospital so that Justin could go to work (graveyard shift, yuck!). Long story short, they all spent the night in the ER and Miss Ava was just miserable. She did get a MicKey button, but it's too big and protrudes several inches from her tummy.

Wanna bet she pulls this one out, too?

Our Pretty Ava

I just spoke with Ava during my morning break. She put the phone to her ear, and sounding exactly like Chuckie Finster of the Rugrats, said....

Hi, Grandma!

She made my day.

Ava News

Gosh, the last month has been so busy I don't know where to start. Let's see...Ava destroyed my cell phone, my car rudely demanded a new fuel pump, the vacuum and coffeemaker both went kaput, and I have gained yet another five pounds. We also observed the anniversary of Charlie's suicide. Most importantly, Ava, Laura, and I visited Dr. Mervis at the University of Louisville.

Finances being what they are, we decided I would drive us to Kentucky. We loaded up the minivan and off we went. Ava, however, wasn't nearly as excited about a road trip as we were. We had to stop and let her walk around about every hour or so. She got so upset in her car seat that she kept pushing at the restraints and sliding her butt around. Consequently, she rubbed her bottom raw. Did I ever mention that Ava has spina bifida occulta? In most cases SBO isn't problematic, but Ava's "tail" protrudes enough that when friction is applied she actually gets sores similar to the pressure sores that nursing home patients get. And they hurt!

Things improved greatly once we were able to get off the road and spend some time at Dr. Mervis's lab. Ava did fairly well, especially the first day of testing. She was really excited about having a new group of women to manipulate!

Sadly enough, my granddaughter is not a child prodigy, she doesn't place at the top of the WS heap. Instead, she now has a new set of labels. Ava. WS, ODD, ADHD, SID (now SPD). According to the good doctor, at 29 months of age, Ava functions about as well as a 14 to 15-month-old child. She has sensory integration issues, especially oral and tactile processing problems. Dr. Mervis recommended brushing, joint compression, and ABA--applied behavior analysis. She feels that Ava's behavior is getting in the way of her learning.

On the bright side, new diagnoses mean additional services, which was my motive for orchestrating this trip. I don't want poor Laura and Justin to get railroaded at their IEP. Early On has already begun implementing Dr. Mervis's suggestions, and for that I am so grateful.

My granddaughter is a brat. And she's beautiful, funny, cuddly, and so very loved. Often I prefer to ignore Williams Syndrome and concentrate on the blessing I call Ava. I love her so much.

This is why I go to work every day...

Minor Rant

It's been over two years since Ava was diagnosed with Williams Syndrome. I like to think I have made my peace with it and moved on. Still, once in a while I am reminded that our little one has to work ever so hard to master tasks that are so simple for other children.

Ava loves to toddle on the sidewalk, all the way to the end-turn around-and do it all over again. Unfortunately, the poor baby doesn't dare to look down while walking. It makes me sad that she gets stuck on a benign crack in the sidewalk. She gets visibly agitated and cries. It's a simple fix. Pick her up, move her past the crack, and she's good to go. Visuospatial issues, indeed. And what missing gene is responsible for my granddaughter having to walk as carefully as someone who is 80 years old?

Change of Plans

Yesterday I felt an enormous weight on my shoulders. Things have been really hard lately, both at home and at work. I wanted to post something about what's going on, but I was too drained and weepy to write. I'm glad I waited.

Laura called me at lunch time today.

"Guess what your granddaughter did today!" ( I knew right then Ava was in trouble)

It seems Miss Ava had a lovely bath today. Unfortunately, she was so relaxed that-you guessed it-she, um, pooped in the tub. Now really, that isn't so bad. Except that she stuck it in her mouth, smiled, and exclaimed,

I booped!

She's on the charts!

Ava weighed in at 23 lbs., 10 oz. today. She measured 35" tall. That puts her
just under the 5th percentile for weight, and somewhere between the 60th and
65th for height!

Good job, Ava!

The Kid Whisperer

The best part of Easter:

Watching Laura expertly convince my grouchy granddaughter to eat some applesauce by gently singing a pretty song. It goes something like this:

Oh, do you know the muffin man? *bite*

The muffin man, *bite*

The muffin man? *bite*

Umm, yeah. If I am ever threatening to jump off a bridge, I hope Laura is there to sing me down!

Easter Wishes

Happy Easter to all my favorite chicks!

Michaela's on my mind

I need a favor. I would like every person who reads this post to say a quick prayer for Michaela, a sweet young girl with WS who has been dealing with some serious health issues recently. If you don't pray, at least keep her in your thoughts. Michaela's mom has been very supportive of all of us; it's time to return the favor.

Be well, Michaela!

I borrowed Michaela's art from her mom's blog. You can visit her here to leave encouraging messages.

And you thought YOU had it rough?