Thanks to a little insomnia I have been watching an old Mel Gibson flick, The Man Without a Face. Mel is a disfigured recluse who begins, somewhat unwillingly, a friendship of sorts with a young boy who asks him to provide tutoring so that he can pass his boarding school entrance exam. It turns out old Mel is really a great guy and provides the mentoring this kid really needs. Yada yada. Anyway, my mind started wandering and in popped Ava! Right now Ava is really small for her age, so any delays are somewhat overlooked because she can "pass" for a younger child. I wonder if, as Ava gets older, people will see only her impairments (for lack of a better word at 3:00am) instead of the great kid inside. What if people whisper the "R" word about her? I know in my heart that we love her as much as humanly possible. I know that she will have every available opportunity to learn. And I try to tell myself to take it one day at a time. But still, what if?