Saturday, September 23, 2006

What if?

Thanks to a little insomnia I have been watching an old Mel Gibson flick, The Man Without a Face. Mel is a disfigured recluse who begins, somewhat unwillingly, a friendship of sorts with a young boy who asks him to provide tutoring so that he can pass his boarding school entrance exam. It turns out old Mel is really a great guy and provides the mentoring this kid really needs. Yada yada. Anyway, my mind started wandering and in popped Ava! Right now Ava is really small for her age, so any delays are somewhat overlooked because she can "pass" for a younger child. I wonder if, as Ava gets older, people will see only her impairments (for lack of a better word at 3:00am) instead of the great kid inside. What if people whisper the "R" word about her? I know in my heart that we love her as much as humanly possible. I know that she will have every available opportunity to learn. And I try to tell myself to take it one day at a time. But still, what if?




3 comments:

Nancy said...

Sheesh, I should get your phone number. I have been up since at least 3, too.

I believe we all think these kinds of thoughts, if that makes you feel any better. It's part of absorbing things, grieving, and hopefully accepting things fully (I'll let you know when I get there).

xoxox

Kerry said...

I think we all think these things -and there's no way around that. Hopefully, they will all be happy children, happy adults...we have a good shot at that.

Lisa R said...

I think that it is impossible to think what if...I like to think that our children are going ot be alot better off this day in age then even 10 years ago. I wouled imangin they are going to have quite the little WS comunity to hang with...